i sleep very early now

- because work is tiring and i wake up early. which means 11pm is my bedtime, and i love it

lately the grace and love i'm receiving and feeling from God is just indescribable, literally i cannot express it in words. i've tried, and it just came out incoherent.

"where the grace of God is missed, bitterness is born. but where the grace of God is embraced, forgiveness flourishes..."

and a random psalm verse that is absolutely beautiful is ps 30:11
"you changed my sorrow into dancing. you took away my clothes of sadness, and clothed me in happiness" in ncv version


He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

oh how He loves us, sigh so undeserved -_- thank you Jesus, thank-you.

Christmas eve

Had to work from 9-3 today, but the boss is paying everyone a full day's wage :) he gave everyone some bonuses too yay

Wanted to kill some time by shopping after work but omg. Ended up driving near the entrance and going straight home. There was just WAY too much traffic, it was gross.

Had a wonderful dinner with family- 13 of us! Then we all opened presents and watched "night at the museum 2." it was really fun :)

And then Jesus was welcomed into the world. What a beautiful night!

ooookkk

working life means you just have fewer hours in the day running your errands and stuff...

so i actually feel busier than i did compared to being a full time student. -__-

a big bag of emo

disappointment, jealousy (the good kind), confusion, fear, grace, love
- what a big bag of emotions mixed in a week!

for now, it seems like a new chapter is being opened. praying that God will continue to open doors for me :)

i wish getting A's at community college was as easy as getting A's at ucla -_- i fail at school!

and i got my first paycheck today. man, i miss clicc :P

In my life...

I want to be able to witness a meteor shower, no matter the time of night, length to drive, how I get there...

Simply seeing one or two pass by while driving is not good enough!

oh praise the Lord woot woot woot!

thank you Jesus for getting me a job!

starting work tomorrow, pay's not that great, but I'm not asking for much at this point :P ptL!

now i will kick physio in the butt tonight, and praise Him all the way through it. woot woot woot =)

and the cold is AWESOME. i look over the buildings and see beautiful snow on top of the mountains! i want to play in the snowwwwwwwwww.

a strange and silly classmate, who is male, asked the professor (very loudly i might add), "can YOU (emphasize this and bring it 2 pitches higher) explain to me the vagina? i don't get it!" oh reproductive system, you are indeed special!

today was nice

had a doctor appointment this morning and i finally, after 22 years, got to have a conversation with the doctor (dr. galitz) and nurse (carol) who delivered me at birth :) :) :) carol snuck in my mom's file and showed me the first paper work she filled back in 1987, and my ultrasound at 26 weeks. it was seriously, such a precious moment.. =)

and then tonight, my parents and i played wii fit for 2 hours haha it was so fun.

very thankful indeed!

i will trade you 2 wheat for 1 oar.

the first time i played settlers was with amy c, matt g, and david k. it was during our senior trip at joshua park. and let me tell you, i was scarred after playing with matt and david. there was much yelling and bickering and fighting over resources. and then i never played again... until tonight. haha small group ended early tonight so we played settlers! i didn't win, but i had fun nonetheless haha.

we talked about acts 17 tonight, and then about demonology. that's interesting stuff i tell ya.

really loving it (:

refreshment

that was so nice. going to small group once again... it's definitely different than ica, it's so much more casual. i love learning new things about scripture. it makes me fall in love all over again with the Word!

i get nervous when i hear the doorbell ring

2 sets of mormon guys rang the doorbell to my house in the last 2 weeks. i only empathize that they have to go out and evangelize door-to-door and get back-to-back rejections, but it worries me that they are preaching a false Gospel in my neighborhood...

it'd be interesting to converse with them one day.

near-panic attacks at night?

never a good sign.

went to bed last night, spent an hour trying to go to sleep, only to be consumed by thoughts of my future, if i'm even going to make it into pharm school, or grad school, when will i get a job? when will God give me that flashing green light to make the next step in my life? yeah, try getting to sleep with all that going on in your head.

and then my hypocritical parents who tell me to focus on studies, do well in school! then on the other hand, when are you going to get a job? my friend's son/daughter went straight to pharmacy school after she graduated! why are you such a failure?

as if i need their reminder that i'm a failure, i already know that.

oh Jesus how i need you now.

that's another off the checklist

i have finally conquered the 405 freeways! lame as it sounds, i was terrified of driving it, especially the curvy mountain ways. i dislike traffic, and especially changing lanes in traffic. but nonetheless, and praise the Lord, i come back in one piece (:

had a long overdue reunion with my vset team this past weekend. minus elaine and anthony ): they took me out for my birthday, aww i know! it was fun, we got to catch up and pray for one another. i miss them already!

please pray for my uncle, who lives in china. he is currently in jail -_- awaiting trial for something that happened at his work... stupid boss (and sadly a distant DISTANT relative of ours) fled the country and now he's being held accountable for the problem. he's not a believer, well, no one in my family on both sides is- so pray for safety (don't know how violent china jails are -_-), health, and opportunities!

what??

how does a 30 minute online assessment with a bunch of multiple choice and scenarios tell you that you are not RIGHT for the job???

...

totally lame.

hello 22.

oh me, oh my.
if you guys ever want to know what i want for my birthday, it's simple: i just want to laugh. laugh till i cry and till i roll off the chair, laugh till my sides hurt. hahaha

so what struck out the most to me this birthday?

- family lunch; lots of seafood -_-!
- wii fit; hula hoop master = me
- walk with my mommy
- studying for my phy sci midterm, which i don't even mind!

and the best one:
- realizing that God waited 20 years for me to come back to Him. He's ridiculously patient~ :) 2nd birthday celebrating new life, and eternities more to come yayayay!

But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.
- james 1:25

good-bye 21! strangely, you were a very good and alcohol-free year.

memories

it feels so good to delete old blog entries.

things that you don't want to be reminded of ever again, at least in words.

thank you technology.

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"do not let your heart be troubled; believe in God, believe also in Me."
jn 14:1

community college

there are pros and cons to sitting in the back of the classroom.
pros- you can work on your own stuff especially when the professor is teaching out of the book
cons- you hear EVERYTHING that goes on in the back. all the wannabe aZn thugs, recent high school graduates, old-er people... and their schemes of how to cheat on the midterm on tuesday.

meh.

i need to meet with Jesus more often. He can heal anything! praise the Lord hehe

the big needle

washington is getting more tempting everyday..

cold weather, rain, and the occasional snow.

big coats, boots with dem fur, umbrellas...

hey.

do you ever get the feeling that someone just prayed for you?

praise the Lord.

(:

dazzling.

hm. i read all 4 twilight books in a week. i know. 2514 pages. yep- i became lost in the series... it was a tense and romantic book.

and i, renewed the hopeless romantic inside me.

it's october!

oh mama. i don't know... this year's going by pretty fast. surprisingly, i'm turning 22 this month. 22! i really don't feel part of this 20s age group yet. it's not how they portray it in the movies that's for sure haha.

keeping busy these days- though not on purpose. trips to ucla once a week for extension class, i think it's really a blessing in disguise though. i get to keep fellowship with ica at least for this quarter. =) i really missed my sisters.

i was bored monday night and decided to pick up my sister's twilight book. bad idea. it's a few hundred pages of reading but i finished it wednesday night. second book, roughly another few hundred pages, finished it within 24 hours. honestly, it's not that great of a book, but i'm a sucker for those cheesy romance ones. sigh, i'm really one that opposes being part of the latest fad of something- but this one tricked me. now i will have to wait eagerly (but not too eager :]) for the new moon to come out.

//end dorkyness

ptL for fans!

it's getting hot again. the last 3 nights were so nice, waking up wrapped in my blanket all warm. waking up at 6:30am to a freezing room, putting a sweater on... i love cold weather.

as soon as i can, i'm moving out of la. :)

sad-face

i hate to be so emo, but i have not felt so down in a long time. so long, i don't remember when the last time was.

i lost the joyfulness i used to have; please pray that i will find it again through God. and all the uneasiness on my heart (living at home, personal relationships, finding a job) will be lifted up to Him. and most importantly to learn to surrender to Him.

God wants to give us good things.

thanks to a sister reminding me these 2 important questions:
1. are we trying to please God? or
2. are we trying to please other people?

the 2 most fundamental questions; never forget them.

anyways, i went to praise night at whec and saw many sisters i haven't seen all summer. i really needed that last night, being surrounded by sisters, praising God, praying. praise God~

not so sweet

living at home is not what i expected it to be at all. it's almost depressing.

hmm, but i know God will pull through for me. yay for his faithfulness, worries no more :)

withdrawal withdrawal!

VSET's been over for a month week and I've already slipped back into my old life of sin. Hey, it feels like a month!!! I miss Taiwan, miss my team, miss my students, miss the Hsinchu sisters, miss the (dare I say it) schedule! It hasn't been bad though, by God's grace I have been able to get some Word daily and also the Spirit always reminds me to pray daily :)

Job hunting is so hard! By God's grace, I have an interview for Target pharmacy Monday. Praise the Lord =) Pierce also starts Tuesday for me aiyo...

School... that will be fun haha I really need to get out more, hopefully I'll get a car soon. I miss everyone at UCLA and WHEC :(

awwwww-some!

VSET training started! I was blessed to "escape" from it for a day and a half by coming back to LA to attend my sister's high school graduation. Apparently blow horns are more prohibited than I thought... the popo came to arrest a guy blowing a horn but the crowds supported him and boo'ed the cops away haha I love my family and graduations. One more tomorrow for my lil cousin :)

Training day 1 was tough. God revealed a lot of my sins and faults already. I was thinking how am I supposed to get through the rest of the summer with all my personal problems! I mean, I have a lot of problems. But QT this morning was nice, was reminded of Jesus' blood and redemption he gave us and how His grace is what covers over all of us(Eph 1:7)! This was a touching verse for me because I couldn't have gotten through my first day of training or the next days and weeks without Jesus :)

And then Min drove me to the San Diego train station. It was an interesting ride, my departure was at 12pm; we were still on the freeway at 11:50am. We got LOST until 11:57am. Keep in mind trains leave ON TIME, but PTL I totally made it with 1 minute to spare. The moment I sat on a chair we started rollin' out. omg, it was stressful! But seriously, what a great testimony of God's faithfulness because if I missed that train, it would be another 4 hours before I can get another train T_T

Mahh, I jacked up my knee today. Probably due to running?? But it ended up hurting later in the day. BOO :(

Back to Pine Valley tomorrow :P

packing... and sushi

Gives me a headache. Packing for training and VSET was annoying. I'm pretty sure it's the reason I got a headache.

But whatevs, God is still amazing. Had a great time with my family tonight- we're so awkward... :)

alumni status!

What a wonderful weekend! Well, this week just went by so fast. Enjoyed a lot of company with old friends and now friends =) Had dimsum with the senior class Friday, worked my last CLICC shift!

Then Saturday was all about graduations! Bittersweet, knowing I'll see some brothers and sisters again in a few years! :( 8am graduation man.. but so worth it =) My family is so cute<3 and my ICA family is awesome! I'm gonna miss my freshman sg a lot- those girls keep me young hahaha.

So many errands to run before VSET, so much to CLEAN/UNPACK/REPACK for training and VSET. "Oh mamma"

New glasses coming up soonnn :P

whiffle ball!

That was fun! Some highlights...

1. I fouled the ball and it decided to attack my face.
2. Mike's star jump.
3. Great air catches in the dark.
4. Norman's crazy foul/1st base hits (ALL OR NOTHING!!)
5. I have some sort of bruising on my forearm that I have no idea how I got.
6. I throw really bad- "like a girl" "how does a girl throw?" "look at erick loh."
7. Joe's samurai bat swing that stops half way.
8. End score- 30something to 15 (my team).

Ahh, praise the Lord for being so gracious to me... <3 ICA. What a great way to end the year!

Whiffle ball = 2 thumbs up :)

up up up :)

My room's all cleaned up, no more pictures/posters on the walls, closet's all clean- dang it I forgot to take a picture of my room!! :( Moving out in 2 days, lived here for 2 years! I'm going to miss living here and living in LA a lot. Home here I come!

Tonight I saw "Up!"


They passed posters out at the end of the movie and there were 2 sides to it, this one and...

this one! I cannot choose, the little boy is so cute :)

"The CONE OF SHAME!!!" Point! Squirrel!

It was cute, cried a bit in the beginning I won't lie. My face was in a smiling position the whole time, couldn't help it!

Wiffle ball tonight, one of my last ICA events! :(