today was nice

had a doctor appointment this morning and i finally, after 22 years, got to have a conversation with the doctor (dr. galitz) and nurse (carol) who delivered me at birth :) :) :) carol snuck in my mom's file and showed me the first paper work she filled back in 1987, and my ultrasound at 26 weeks. it was seriously, such a precious moment.. =)

and then tonight, my parents and i played wii fit for 2 hours haha it was so fun.

very thankful indeed!

i will trade you 2 wheat for 1 oar.

the first time i played settlers was with amy c, matt g, and david k. it was during our senior trip at joshua park. and let me tell you, i was scarred after playing with matt and david. there was much yelling and bickering and fighting over resources. and then i never played again... until tonight. haha small group ended early tonight so we played settlers! i didn't win, but i had fun nonetheless haha.

we talked about acts 17 tonight, and then about demonology. that's interesting stuff i tell ya.

really loving it (:

refreshment

that was so nice. going to small group once again... it's definitely different than ica, it's so much more casual. i love learning new things about scripture. it makes me fall in love all over again with the Word!

i get nervous when i hear the doorbell ring

2 sets of mormon guys rang the doorbell to my house in the last 2 weeks. i only empathize that they have to go out and evangelize door-to-door and get back-to-back rejections, but it worries me that they are preaching a false Gospel in my neighborhood...

it'd be interesting to converse with them one day.

near-panic attacks at night?

never a good sign.

went to bed last night, spent an hour trying to go to sleep, only to be consumed by thoughts of my future, if i'm even going to make it into pharm school, or grad school, when will i get a job? when will God give me that flashing green light to make the next step in my life? yeah, try getting to sleep with all that going on in your head.

and then my hypocritical parents who tell me to focus on studies, do well in school! then on the other hand, when are you going to get a job? my friend's son/daughter went straight to pharmacy school after she graduated! why are you such a failure?

as if i need their reminder that i'm a failure, i already know that.

oh Jesus how i need you now.

that's another off the checklist

i have finally conquered the 405 freeways! lame as it sounds, i was terrified of driving it, especially the curvy mountain ways. i dislike traffic, and especially changing lanes in traffic. but nonetheless, and praise the Lord, i come back in one piece (:

had a long overdue reunion with my vset team this past weekend. minus elaine and anthony ): they took me out for my birthday, aww i know! it was fun, we got to catch up and pray for one another. i miss them already!

please pray for my uncle, who lives in china. he is currently in jail -_- awaiting trial for something that happened at his work... stupid boss (and sadly a distant DISTANT relative of ours) fled the country and now he's being held accountable for the problem. he's not a believer, well, no one in my family on both sides is- so pray for safety (don't know how violent china jails are -_-), health, and opportunities!

what??

how does a 30 minute online assessment with a bunch of multiple choice and scenarios tell you that you are not RIGHT for the job???

...

totally lame.